Time to Reminisce
It's already around 2:40 in the morning. I don't know why I'm still up. We finished our defense for our Strama a while ago and I can say that we somehow did well. All of us actually did well. We deserve every positive feedback because all of us really put so much effort into this. We had so many sleepless nights just to finish and make a good Strama paper. Although there were some misunderstandings along the way, everything was worth it. It feels good that finally everything is almost over. We just need to make some revisions on some part. This Strama and defense for me is the highlight of my senior year in college. It was really a big relief when we finally finished our defense and what's more good about it, was that it turned out well.
So why am I still up? I should be resting and sleeping by now but I chose to open this blog again and blog about my life. I don't know if someone or anyone is still browsing this site. But who cares, I'm still gonna share about the things I feel at this very moment. I was actually browsing the net a while ago. I typed "John Arigo" in google and then it lead me to my site. Haha. It's funny. That's why I tried to look and read my previous posts here. It made me feel sad and made me miss everything. I miss my GS and HS days when I used to be a MAJOR and ULTIMATE ADMIRER, let me repeat that, ADMIRER and not STALKER of John Arigo. (Hahaha I don't want to sound so defensive!!! lol ) I read everything, my wrong grammar posts, my super hyper-kilig moments with John.. *sighs* I can say that I really miss the feeling. I miss the feeling of being in cloud 9. The mere fact of seeing him play live, the mere fact of taking pictures with him makes me the happiest person alive. I miss that kind of feeling. It may sound so shallow but what the heck. HE'S THE ONLY person who gave me that kind of feeling. I want to go back to my childhood days because before, those simple things can already make me so damn happy. Unlike now, everything's so complimated. Especially when you talk about "love life". Yes up to now, I don't have a boyfriend yet. I don't if it is them or is it me who have problems. Maybe both. Boys are hard to trust. Eventhough I like the person, I don't say them. I'm too scared and not that expressive when it comes to my feelings that's why everything's gone. Well, you can't blame me. They dont give me enough reasons to make them love by me. I don't know. Sometimes I just want to be alone. I want to be on my own. I want to listen to the music and just think. Think about what happened. I'm always like this. I'm always emo. That's why I hate falling in love. Err. I hate this kind of "falling in love". I want the kind of falling in love when I was still younger when I used to love John Arigo so much. (well, I still love him. NO ONE and NOTHING can change that.) I miss the simple things I do for him. I miss the old-happy days. No heartaches. I miss that kind of falling in love. I don't know if you can all it falling in love but that's the better way to fall in love for me. That's true love. (haha I know you're laughing at me. Please understand.) I MISS EVERYTHING. I really hope that one day I'll be able to meet the "John Arigo" of my life yknow. I miss him. I want to see him, watch his games, cheer for him and think nothing and no one but him. I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSS my childhood. HS and GS days are the best days of my life. *sighs* And now I'm about to take the last semester of my college life. Time flies so fast. I know shouldn't be stuck in the past. I should get mature because everything is different in REAL and CORPORATE life. That's why it really scares me. :( The best thing to do now is just to make the most of my college days because sooner or later, I know I will be missing this feeling as well. That's for sure. So, wala lang. That's for my update. I miss John Arigo so bad. I hope to meet him still someday. Hay.. how I wish to never grow up. I wish to be a kid forever. No problems to think about. All fun. HAAAAAAY. but that's what always happen in life. You fall in love, get broken,get matured, you grow, you stand up and you move on.
I MISS JOHHHHHHHHHHHHHNNNNNNNNNNN! I MISS MATAAAAAA! I MISS PARISS! I MISSSSSSSSS JOHN ARIGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. bow. Gotta end with this. I'm getting crazyyy agaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin. ciao! til next blog! ;)
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