Time to Reminisce
It's already around 2:40 in the morning. I don't know why I'm still up. We finished our defense for our Strama a while ago and I can say that we somehow did well. All of us actually did well. We deserve every positive feedback because all of us really put so much effort into this. We had so many sleepless nights just to finish and make a good Strama paper. Although there were some misunderstandings along the way, everything was worth it. It feels good that finally everything is almost over. We just need to make some revisions on some part. This Strama and defense for me is the highlight of my senior year in college. It was really a big relief when we finally finished our defense and what's more good about it, was that it turned out well.
So why am I still up? I should be resting and sleeping by now but I chose to open this blog again and blog about my life. I don't know if someone or anyone is still browsing this site. But who cares, I'm still gonna share about the things I feel at this very moment. I was actually browsing the net a while ago. I typed "John Arigo" in google and then it lead me to my site. Haha. It's funny. That's why I tried to look and read my previous posts here. It made me feel sad and made me miss everything. I miss my GS and HS days when I used to be a MAJOR and ULTIMATE ADMIRER, let me repeat that, ADMIRER and not STALKER of John Arigo. (Hahaha I don't want to sound so defensive!!! lol ) I read everything, my wrong grammar posts, my super hyper-kilig moments with John.. *sighs* I can say that I really miss the feeling. I miss the feeling of being in cloud 9. The mere fact of seeing him play live, the mere fact of taking pictures with him makes me the happiest person alive. I miss that kind of feeling. It may sound so shallow but what the heck. HE'S THE ONLY person who gave me that kind of feeling. I want to go back to my childhood days because before, those simple things can already make me so damn happy. Unlike now, everything's so complimated. Especially when you talk about "love life". Yes up to now, I don't have a boyfriend yet. I don't if it is them or is it me who have problems. Maybe both. Boys are hard to trust. Eventhough I like the person, I don't say them. I'm too scared and not that expressive when it comes to my feelings that's why everything's gone. Well, you can't blame me. They dont give me enough reasons to make them love by me. I don't know. Sometimes I just want to be alone. I want to be on my own. I want to listen to the music and just think. Think about what happened. I'm always like this. I'm always emo. That's why I hate falling in love. Err. I hate this kind of "falling in love". I want the kind of falling in love when I was still younger when I used to love John Arigo so much. (well, I still love him. NO ONE and NOTHING can change that.) I miss the simple things I do for him. I miss the old-happy days. No heartaches. I miss that kind of falling in love. I don't know if you can all it falling in love but that's the better way to fall in love for me. That's true love. (haha I know you're laughing at me. Please understand.) I MISS EVERYTHING. I really hope that one day I'll be able to meet the "John Arigo" of my life yknow. I miss him. I want to see him, watch his games, cheer for him and think nothing and no one but him. I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSS my childhood. HS and GS days are the best days of my life. *sighs* And now I'm about to take the last semester of my college life. Time flies so fast. I know shouldn't be stuck in the past. I should get mature because everything is different in REAL and CORPORATE life. That's why it really scares me. :( The best thing to do now is just to make the most of my college days because sooner or later, I know I will be missing this feeling as well. That's for sure. So, wala lang. That's for my update. I miss John Arigo so bad. I hope to meet him still someday. Hay.. how I wish to never grow up. I wish to be a kid forever. No problems to think about. All fun. HAAAAAAY. but that's what always happen in life. You fall in love, get broken,get matured, you grow, you stand up and you move on.
I MISS JOHHHHHHHHHHHHHNNNNNNNNNNN! I MISS MATAAAAAA! I MISS PARISS! I MISSSSSSSSS JOHN ARIGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. bow. Gotta end with this. I'm getting crazyyy agaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin. ciao! til next blog! ;)
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Saturday, October 01, 201111:38 AM
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NAKAKAMISS.
Hello my blogger. Wala akong magawa kaya naisipan kong mag-blog. HAAAAAAY. Summer 2010 na. Eto na ata ang last summer ko na puro petix lang kasi next year, OJT na. Time flies. 3rd year college na ko. Tas magwwork na. Hindi ko maimagine. K. Wala lang ulet.
Marami lang akong namimiss kasi. Katulad nito, ang pagbblog. Pagbblog na puro about kay John Arigo lang. Halos dati ibblog ko lahat every detail about him. Kung gano ko kasaya pagnakikita ko siya. I know mababaw. Pero masaya. Sa simpleng interaction with him masaya na ko. Manonood ako ng game niya, iccheer ko siya, pupuntang southgate, makakausap siya tas laging may picture. Haha. Ewan ko ba, sa simpleng ganong routine ko nung bata ko, napapasaya na niya ko ng sobra sobra. May something talaga sa kanya na hindi ko ma-explain. Whaat?! HAHA. Oo, seryoso. Minsan mas masaya talaga ang fantasy kesa sa realidad. Kasi kung titignan mo yung realidad minsan wala ka na lang magawa kundi malungkot o umiyak. Tignan mo ngayon, wala na siya. Di na siya naglalaro. Malungkot diba? Oo malungkot nga. Yun ang realidad kaya tanggapin na lang. Kaya minsan nakakamiss rin yung mga kilig moments, yung mga dating ginagawa kong kabaliwan makita lang ang ultimate crush ko. Ohwell. Nakakamiss lang talaga siya. Yun ang point ko. Nakakamiss ang fantasy at ang mala fairytale na storya ng buhay ko. Jk.
Actually hindi lang siya namimiss ko ngayon. May isang tao. Isang tao na akala ko naka-move on na ko. Pero mukang hindi pa talaga. May mga oras na naiisip mo na lang siya, na sana magkasama pa rin kayo hanggang ngayon, na sana ittext ka pa rin niya ng g'morning at g'nyt, yung mga away na nakakaiyak, tapos mauuwi rin sa lambingan. Hay nakakamiss. Sinasabi ko sarili ko na kapag bumalik yung taong yon, I will give US another chance. Pero mukang malabo na mangyari. Wala na rin kaming communication. Saka sa dami ng nangyaring problema namin noon, I doubt na gugustuhin pa niya ko, maging kami man ulit o kahit friends lang. Ewan. Sa ngayon malabo kasi feel ko may iba na siya. Ay hindi ko lang pala feeling yun. OO, may iba na siyang gusto. At feeling niya ata may iba na rin akong gusto. Which is wala naman talaga. Wala lang akong lakas ng loob sabihin sa kanya toh, "Ikaw pa rin naman e. Sana ako na lang ulet." Sige na emo na kung emo. Pero yun talaga nararamdaman ko MINSAN. Oo minsan lang kasi, may mga oras rin naman na naiisip ko yung mga sinasabi niya saken na sobrang nasaktan ako. :( Haaaaaaay. Hindi ko na talaga alam. Pero kung dumating man yung time na magkita kame, o yung time na gusto niya ko kausapin ng matino, game lang ako. Go lang. Ayos lang sakin kahit hanggang friends na lang kahit masakit. Basta maayos lang toh. Tanggap ko na naman na hindi na mababalik yung nakaraan namen. May sarili na kaming buhay ngayon e. Pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasang hindi umasa. Ang hirap mag deny ng tunay mong nararamdamanan e. Pero yun ang realidad. Wag umasa para di na masaktan. I-let go na kasi kung kayo, babalik yan. Pero mahirap eh. HAY. Ano ba to. Nalalabuan na ko sa sarili ko. Alam mo yung feeling na mahal pa kita pero na natatakot na ko? Na baka ganto ganyan. NAkerr. Maybe ang love ay di nga sapat na dahilan para mag stay. Kaya bahala na talaga. Ayoko na. OO ayoko nang umasa. Sana kaya ko. Sana kaya kong pigilan. Malay mo oo, malay mo hindi. Saklap.
O , so kumusta na nga ba ko? Yung tunay na ako? Sa totoo lang, medyo masaya na hindi. May kalungkutan pa rin talaga. Parang laging may kulang. Di ko alam kung ano o sino yon. Damn. Ang ginagawa ko na lang ngayon ay ang magpaka bum sa bahay at lumabas kasama ang mga kaibigan. Ang saya ng summer ko noh? WELL. HINDI SOBRA. Sakto lang. Oo nga masaya ko kasama mga kaibigan ko, pero iba pa rin e. May hinahanap ako na hindi ko alam kung siya ba yon. Ewan. Lagi na lang may kulang. Kahit nung birthday ko. May kulang talaga. Hindi na ko makuntento. Pero natutuwa ako kasi may mga kaibigan ako na isang text mo lang laging andyan para damayan ako. Damayan sa kaboringan, kabaliwan, ka-emohan kahit ang corny na. Sorry na. Ganon na siguro talaga ko. Masayang lumabas, friendly hang outs etc. pero bakit kaya ganon? Hindi ko mapigilan na mag compare kaya nalulungkot ako. TAE. Yun dapat ang gawin ko. Iwasang mag-compare para maka move on na ko. Para maging masaya na ko ng tuluyan at totoo. Para makita ko na yung taong magpapasaya sakin at magmamahal saki talaga. Kelangan kong buksan mga mata ko kasi yung hindi, masstuck ako sa past. Wala akong gagawin kundi ang hanapin ang nakaraan na malabong maibalik. Gaya ng nangyayari ngayon. Tama na. Tigilan na kasi. Madami pa diyan. Oo andami nga nila. Pero.. O yan na naman. Stop comparing. Open your eyes Alen. Grow up. :( HAAAAY. Sige sana kaya ko na talaga ulet. Sana kayanin. Sana. Sana. Sana. Kung ano man yang sana na yan sana magkatotoo. Kbye emoness-in-me.
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Tuesday, April 06, 20109:57 PM
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Hello blogger. Listen to my drama.
Wow. It has been 2 years since my last post here and I actually forgot my PW already that's why I needed to reset and have a new one. Anyways. I don't really know why I am blogging at this time. Maybe because this blog has lots of catching up to do? Hmmm. So, yeah. I'll try to recall and share some things that this blog had missed.
For the last 2 years of my life, 2008 and 2009, I can say that it has been good and at the same time bad for me. During those 2 years, I fell in love. Yeah. I don't know whatever you call it, but yes, I did. I call it my first love. WAAAAAH. :D And hmmm yeeah, for the first time, I entered a relationship. Whew. It was good. It was fun. It was confusing. It was hard. It was sad. It was an experience. A great and bad experience. Great, because in that short period of time, I was able to feel how it is to be in a relationship. I mean a REAL relationship. You two always text each other, update each other, go out on a date, watch the latest movie, dinner together, play sports together, talk on the phone 'til you guys fall asleep, exchange gifts during monthsaries, celebrate holidays together, etc etc. The list goes on and on. It's like a routine already. But the sad part there is that things will not always go your way. It has to end because it's not anymore working between the two of you. Oh well. It actually made me realized that it is not that easy to commit. I mean y'know. Ang hirap palaaaaaa. And if you want your relationship to work out, both of you must REALLY LOVE and TRUST each other. Relationships are not always about the sweet stuff etc. it's more on how much are you willing to love and sacrifice for that person, how long are you willing to wait for that person to change or what so ever. Eh? What am I saying ba? BASTA. That's life. I gotta move on. Maybe it was just a PUPPY LOVE? YEAH. I'm still young naman. And as of now I can say that I'm in the process of moving on. ;) I want to be happy. I don't want to get stuck with my EMO LIFE. geeez. BUT i know that it is not easy. NOT REALLY!!!!! :| But i'm doing good. No worries ;)
Hmmkaay. Change topic muna. JOHN ARIGO also left. He retired already. No more John Arigo in the PBA. :(( TAE. If I only knewwwwwwwwww na aalis na pala siya.. I should have meet him that day. ERR. sayang. HAY. :(
Why is that everyone is leaving nowadays? ESPECIALLY THIS YEAR. I super hate it. Hay. I just wanna share this. Last thursday, me and my college friends had our xmas party, we played this so-called "I've never" game. Basta you need to tell things that you've never done etc. And then if you have already done what your friend has shared, you need to take a shot. SO bukingan talaga. HAHA. It was fun. There was a time na naubusan na ko ng masasabi and the only thing i've mentioned was like.. "Hmmmm. I've neverrrrrr... loved this way before." OKAAAY. Sorry na. EMO LANG. :)) Then we also talked about things like, "It doesn't mean that if he's your first boyfriend, he's your first love." I was like, hmmmm. "Oo nga noh?" WALA LANG. For me, it is harder to get over with the person you never had but once made you happy. Sounds cliche? But maybe it's true. Hmm. Especially when you've realized that you really love this person pala and yet you weren't able to tell your true feelings for them 'coz you don't have the courage to do so. It's like your pride has taken over youuuuu. I mean gets? ERRR. Then suddenly you realized that it's TOO LATE. =(( NAKOW. The only thing you can do is to get upset and frustrated. Blame yourself for acting stupid and for making wrong decisions. TSSSSSK. Then there goes regrets. WHAT THE HECK. WHATTA LIFE. Okaaaay. Am I sharing too much?
Hmmm. Enough of that shit. Move on. Live life. Focus on your studies, Alen. Love will find its time. RIGHT TIME w/ the RIGHT PERSON. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be. ;) Gotta go for now. I still need to wake up early. WHEW Kulang lang siguro sa tulog. :)) G'nyt blogger. :)
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Saturday, December 19, 20098:22 AM
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Hello 2008!
Few minutes to go and it's already 2008. Whew. Many things happened this year
(2007).. the good and the bad. *sighs* Well, Im really thankful for all of those... special mention my encounters w/ JA. Those are really irreplaceable. I miss that guy. I hope that he's happy now. And for the bad times, im also thankful for it. Yes, it brought pain but I guess, I just need to move on , be happy about it and accept it. Beacuse in those sad times, we LEARN something.
Anyhow, enough of the dramas. haha.
Lets all have fun! Have a happy new year to all! Cheers!
THANK YOU 2007! LAAAB. :)
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Monday, December 31, 20076:53 AM
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After 90 days.. we see each other again :)
DEC 16, 2007
Actually, this was never planned at all. haha. When we won againts MBM last wed. I just said to myself, "Parang gusto ko manood sa Sunday!" haha. I was really happy that game kasi.. so I told myself to watch. But there was no assurance that I can watch. I told my dad that I want to watch the game live on Sunday. We just bought the tix last Saturday.. and surprisingly my dad said yes. WHOA. haha. So last yesterday, (dec 16 2007) I was with my dad,ate karen and ate oya to watch the game. Tambak naman yung game. Coke was leading all through out the game. Asi was just spectacular! I actually laughed at Aranya when Asi rann after him and Aranya just ran back like a scared moure.. Mala tom and jerry yung eksena sa court. haha peace. :) the game was really physical. even the 2nd game. BGK won over MBM. And oh.. JA was just so offnyt. He didnt score. It's ok.. he just came from an injury. Anyhow, we still won the game. Congrats tigers! :)
During half time, ate anna gave me the cool armband and my gifts.. thanks a lot sis xtine and hannah.. also ate anna :)
After the first game, we waited for JA at SG. I was with Kuya Jason, Ate Anna, Ate Icae and Ate oya. Ate Rhea was there also. It's really nice to meet her again. Evertime I watch coke's game, sakto, umuwi rin siya from Singapore. hehe. so there, kwentuhan sa SG. Nakakatwa pa nga eh kasi nung andun na si JA I thought hindi niya kasama si Hannah, so when I saw her nawala ako sa sarili. Nahiya and all. Nawala ako sa sarili to the point na muntik pa ko madapa dun sa may tali dun.. dba ate ice? hahahaha. tae talaga. Buti na lang wala pa sila JA nun. Papunta na kasi kami dun sa may car niya. haha. So yun, kamustahan.. si JA masaya as usual. Ate anna also introduced me to Hannah.
Alen: Hi, I'm alen. :)
Hannah: Hello. How old are you?
Alen: Im 16
HannaH: You look so young. :)
Alen: :)
haha speechless ako eh. :)) she's nice tho. then yun kamustahan kay JA..
JA:Hey guys! How you doin?
... blah. nakalimutan ko na. haha
then, i asked him to sign the notebook.
Alen: John, is it ok to leave me a message here?
John: Sure.. oh... you gave me one like this before right?
Alen: yeah yeah..
John: is this new?
Alen: nope.. my friend from butuan sent it for me..
John: Ah... wow. *then nagsign na..habang nagssign..
John: how do you spell your name again?
Alen: It's alen.
John: Yeah yeah.. i know... it's L-E-N right?
Alen: yeh.. A-L-E-N.. one "L"
John: *signing*
Alen: oh.. you forgot my name..(i was just joking him haha)
John: No .. No..Coz Y'know Im poor at spelling.. *he ended laughing*
hahaha si JA talaga patawa. tas un, I greeted him Belated HAppy Birthday.. congrats him for the win and etc.
then he kept on saying "thank you" and all.. tas nag-apir pa siya..? apir ba yun o shakehands? haha basta yun. waaah
hay.. grabeh.. super namiss ko si JA. finally, my christmas is complete... after 90 days we finally see each other again! :)
Merry Xmas to all! :)
PS: Grabe. tagal kong di toh naupdate. haha super busy e. Nag-update ako kasi another encouter w/ john eh.. this blog can't miss anything about him y'know
haha till then :)
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Monday, December 17, 20071:57 AM
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Phone Call. Moro. Pre-season game. UPDATES!
Hello, I'm just here to share my stories with the Arsenal. You know, this blog has not yet missed any story about John, so I'm trying my best to atleast update this. Finally, I have the time and I'm blogging all things up.. Sorry for the late posts. Anyhow, hope you guys will still enjoy my sharing tho it happened months and days ago. :)
AUGUST 20, 2007- Phone Call.
Ate Anna visited Coke's practice and since I can't go with her, I just decided to talk to him over the phone. That's how badly I missed him that time. haha. It was actually the second time for me to hear his voice via my cellphone and it was the best. I hardly listen to what he's saying because I was mesmerized by his sweet voice. haha. Promise. SO SWEET. He was the one who answered the phone by saying this line.. "Hey how you doin? This is JOHN ARIGO AT YOUR SERVICE. *laughs*" I was just like, "Hey john! you sound like working in a call center." So we both laughed. haha. So makulit as ever. Kamustahan and kwentuhan. "When will I see you? When will you come over?" Ang sweet. :) Ang kulit niya that time. I can sense that he's happy. (good for him) He said that his finger is only 50% okay and not yet a 100 percent. He also informed me that they only have practices during weekdays..not on weekends. blah blah. He talks a lot so I can't anymore remember 'em all. I told him how great he was with his HAIR during the draft (so gwapo talaga. I screamed to death while watching him on TV! haha). He said.."Oh most of you guys notice that." Yeah, everyone in the world noticed that,John. We rarely see him with hair kasi. So cute. :) I also told him that the arriba misses him.. he replied.."awww. yeah..i should post right?" haha. John talaga. Basta ang cool niya that time. We talked about basketball things and etc. basta the bottomline is, JOHN IS SO COOL and I'm HAPPY that he is happy. (thanks sis anna for allowing me to talk to him over your phone. c:)
AUG. 22,2007- MORO
I can't anymore control myself, so I went straight ahead to Moro right after my exams. Imagine that? from school to ateneo? haha. Hassle man! Thanks Mona for the company. We arrived around 12:30pm and luckily we were able to catch him still. kamustahan as ever. And then I told him that I was the one in the phone that he was talking with before and he said,"yeah yeah.. I know...that was two days ago ,right?" Wow. Good thing, he remembered. Nice memory! haha. Joke. Basta he asked a lot of things.. school stuff, how we got there.. etc. Then picture picture..(here in my multiply for contacts only) One picture there is very nakakakilig. He hugged me so tight. waaaaah. Grabeh. Ang higpit ng hug niya infairness. Just take a look of the pic here in my multiply(for contacts only.) Then he said, "is that good?" haha.. parang ako, speechless lang. haha. Hay ..JOHN. thanks for making my day again. :)
After that, mejo nabadtrip pa ko which I will just keep to myself. Then me and mona met Demi at RP and watched Rush Hour 3. That was a hell of a movie... you'll die because of laughter. haha. :)
SEPT. 15, 2005 - ACET
Geez. I took ACET and it was really difficult because it's really timepressured. tsk. After that, I saw John while in his car. Just sharing. haha. :p
SEPT. 17, 2007-- Pre-season game at Marikina Sports complexAfter school, I'm really thinking If I will still go and watch the game. My parents won't allow me at first and then good thing, napilit ko sila so, nakahabol pa ko. When I got there, saktong tapos na yung game. Tsk. We lost :( John didnt play yet because of his finger. I met Sis Anna and Ate Ice there and we waited for John. Yun.pagkalabas we approached him. He was a bit shocked because I was there. haha. You missed me huh? lol. He was like, "hey! you! You're here! How you doin? what's new?" Then he shook my hand. Awww. He was so nice as ever. hay.... I told him that I came from school and straightly go to their game. Tinanong pa kung san daw malapit yung school ko.. blah blah. He said, "Oh.. you're just near so you were able to come." waahh. John naman. haha. Then kwentuhan to death.. about the ride to fame and Kobe's tour here. I asked him about the mall tour here in robinson's metroeast and he said that he's not yet sure about it. He has not received any memo yet daw. "I already did a mall tour..in robinson's pioneer." Then I replied, "yeah.. i saw your poster there. Was that a poster or some kind of a billboard?", He said, "yeah..a billboard. It is that small though. *estimating how small it is and laughed*" haha. patawa talaga. Maliit lang kasi talaga. haha. Ang cute niya. I even introduced my brother to him, sabi nia, "Hey bro. How it's going? It's nice to meet you." then he shook the hand of my bro. haha. Yun naman. Bro talaga ang tawag? haha. Then he told me, "I'm trying to see if you guys look alike." Patawa talaga si John. He's really cute that time. basta. bait bait. :) Then yun, after talking to him we waited for A-Cab (sis anna, sino toh? haha). We saw Danny I. (ang gwpo!lol) and Ali peek.. Ali said, "are you looking for Arigow?" haha. slang na slang. :P
THANKS FOR READING. Till my next blog.(if im not that busy anymore) :)
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Wednesday, September 19, 20073:29 AM
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Like Mike -- Dirk =)
Have you guys watch the movie Like Mike?
Dirk had a lil scene there and here it goes..
Dirk Nowitzki: Can you sign this? It's for my niece.
Calvin Cambridge: Sure. What's her name?
Dirk Nowitzki: Uhhh... Dirk.
haha. HE MADE ME LAUGH FOR REAL. :P
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Wednesday, July 11, 20072:46 AM
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